Since arriving in Istanbul you may be surprised to note that I am eating fruit, mostly oranges, I still can’t get past the awful texture of apples and pears. Further more if a dish has vegetables, like lettuce in a sandwich, or some tomato based sauce, I don’t remove it or pick it off. For those of you with normal eating habits this may seem like no big deal but for me its progress. Egg plant has a weird texture but is pretty good to taste even though I failed at cooking it by adding way to much oil because the plant absorbs it, when I bit into it I found out I was essentially eating pure olive oil, in addition to undercooking it. After watching my roommate make some up I now know that you can let it soak up a bit of oil and basically brown it dark like an overcooked hash brown and then it tastes okay.
My first week in Istanbul, I ate no meat and no sugar. Why you may ask? Well because I speak no Turkish. I spent most of my first week dreading shopping in the corner market because I feel like an idiot not speaking the local language. This being said the need for cookies helped me to overcome this little bump in my bravery.
Cut me some slack. Everyone has continued to ask me if I am “AFRAID”: To go alone, to be away for so long, to travel as a single woman, to encounter large insects, to be stopped at the border, of a terrorist attack, to fly, for the plane to crash. I have come to the conclusion that a lot of people worry an awful lot. However I guess I have my own hang ups. I am not afraid of any of the above things, not to say I wouldn’t have fear if someone shoved a bomb at me, the captain announced that the plain was going down, or I found some huge icky bug in my travel boot, but these are not things I dwell on or worry about until they are actually happening. What I was afraid of was shopping and eating out.
Now while all of you people worried that I was going to get the plague or something might ask “Why is that so scary?” Well most of the fears people have asked me about having, are not really that likely to happen, and as for theft or loss of documents. I have pretty much take all the steps I can to prevent it. Shopping is unavoidable. It is easy to get ripped off and I’m used to the North American attitude of “Why can’t you just speak English already?” As Canadians we may or may not be as bad as the USA for this but the frustration I have seen people display toward people who can not speak clear English was something I was afraid of coming into contact here not speaking Turkish.
I found myself mostly sticking to street stalls in tourist areas for my shopping this left me on a diet of mostly, bread eggs, and what I liked on the local vegetable cart. A week of low protein left me wanting Fried Chicken in the worst way. I walked past the place every day just to scared to go in and order something. Some part of had this irrational fear of being chased out of the establishment by an angry Turkish manager shouting “Come back when you have an education in my country.” Now this doesn’t happen to people who can’t speak English at home either so it was completely not logical for me to think this way, but having been in customer service I’ve seen enough awkward situations due to language barriers arise to strike me with a little fear.
One additional thing that put me off was fashion. I didn’t travel with much and places around here are fancy! People are fancy. McDonalds, Starbucks, and the fried chicken place all host designer furniture, and chandler lighting. Yes my friends there is a chandler in McDonalds. I have been doing a boastful job of blending in and keeping a low profile. Going into places like these and asking for “Table for one” in English just freaked me right out. Then of course the awkward sitting alone part for half an hour while waiting for food didn’t really put me at ease either. Defeated I went home, in the dark, in the rain, with out my chicken, to eat plain pasta and a hard boiled egg. Yes folks the jury has spoken, in my case the egg did come before the chicken.
For most people the thing that gives them confidence is facing their fears. Being the odd duck that I am, the thing that gives me the most confidence is getting around the fear. If I don’t actually ever have to face my fear then logically there is nothing to be afraid of… at least by my logic or maybe that’s just overcoming things by pure denial. Thank god for technology! There is a delivery service online that will bring you anything you want for little to no additional charge and they even speak English when they call you one the phone! YAY FRIED CHICKEN! Enter address, phone number, what you want from where you want it, and 45 minutes later it appears magically at my door. Ha ha I win! Now of course I didn’t come to Istanbul to sit indoors and order fried chicken, but that being said it’s nice to know that I have the option to do so.
So tonight I went out to my first place to eat alone and ordered a steak. I picked a small down to earth little place. Where the service was bad and the food wasn’t all that great, but some reason that made me feel better about not speaking Turkish. After waiting close to an hour for my food, the waiter comes up and says “Sorry, more personal, I together okay?” by which I think he was trying to say was “Sorry I thought you were waiting for another person, is it okay that I brought your bread and food together.” The food wasn’t particularly good, or bad, just standard, but now I’ve done it, tomorrow is Friday and I am going to another place that I keep walking by with the look of a sad puppy. I just know from watching the place that the food is going to be awesome.
So what this means for me is that I am not all that brave, but sometimes it’s hard to be when you are alone. Also now any chance I would have had of losing weight from not eating meat is gone since I’m now not afraid to order it. That’s my little culture shock. Bon appetite